Only by your power
October 8, 2008 | faith, feelings
I’m self-sufficient. Independent to a fault. It’s the way I was made, I believe. It’s a good thing. And yet there are times I have not had the answers or known what to do. My strength. My faith. It wasn’t enough.
Only by your power can we push back our enemies. Only in your name can we trample our foes. Psalm 44:5
I image David as I read this chapter today. He is weary, discouraged, overwhelmed. He is in that “I believe; help my unbelief” stage of life. He’s a warrior, a king. Yet it feels like God is nowhere to be found.
It’s a vulnerable moment. I felt it when Ryan was hit by a drunk driver at 15. Again when Richard was struggling with his job a few years ago and the man I loved seemed to be slipping away, leaving an unhappy stranger in his place.
“Where are you, God?”
You see, the day before I felt God. My faith was as close as a whisper. I turned and it was there, but not in these times. I dug down deep and found faith, but no feelings to accompany it.
Did God see us? Did God know what was going on?
Looking back, I see God clearly. But I also see me, searching, hoping, clinging to my faith. I felt weak.
But it was enough because only by His power could I take the next step. It wasn’t about my strength. Only in His name could I wake up and know that I wasn’t alone.
Sometimes I long for God and today is one of those days. To connect with Him. To feel that quiet strong presence. To carve away all the complexities of faith and simply be His. Do you ever feel that way? This is my prayer today:
Send out your light and truth; let them guide me. Let them lead me to your holy mountain, to the place where you live. There I will go to the alter of God, to God–the source of all my joy. Psalm 43:3-4
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Suzie, that is a great post. YES!!! I have felt that way. To the depths of my soul ached to know that the Lord was with me, but - nothing…… I mean nothing. I know that feeling of CLINGING to faith when all the “signs” point to “God abandoned you!”
It was those times to pressed in towards the truth in the Word - so that I KNOW that God’s presence is not based on how I feel - what I do - if I earned His love and presence today, but He just IS.
October 8th, 2008 at 7:50 pmI feel that way more often than I’d like to admit! Praying that you feel His presence today…
October 9th, 2008 at 8:50 amI sure needed this today. Thank you.
October 9th, 2008 at 10:26 amLove this reminder. Thank you.
October 13th, 2008 at 12:45 pmGosh this is great…..
October 15th, 2008 at 6:51 amGod is so true to us. We draw close to Him, he is always their waiting for us! Isn’t that great